( <3? ). I am okay if you read me well, deeper. Vote health to intel health to mental health by a blipped flip of judgementalities traumma grammar hammer hurts.
I am fine enough to find some work. Do you judge a book by its intergenerativational grammar? We systems are trauma-sensitive much? Map(.org empathy deeper? Read us well?
I have help and medical history. Do we need me to explain vital signs to record-keep my account and read my own comments without feeling constant random erasure for talking about pain? I am often trolled for talking about pain.
Problem solving traumatic emotional regexes, is a liferacy of literacy at biteracy which needs greater disrepression at order of tools we use to pick our basic letter needs.
Feel free to ask, but first I want to check and balance the fact that I am asked that question often from fear, uncertainty, doubt, ignorance, and taboo — war word roots tear through crypto-social-emotional-legal-rational-memory issues.
It's good to hear that you're fine enough to find some work and that you have help. As someone who has also been through a lot of pain, I find that some of your comments resonate. I feel a positive intention in them even when I don't understand the words.
At the same time, a semi-anonymous online forum is not a great place to process major pain. What you need (in my experience) is warm connection with specific people you can trust. Internet comments aren't real enough for anything but a small portion of that. To heal real pain, you need more. I hope you find that too.
I meet people here fine, some people treat me human. But I/we face a trauma 51% attack. Marginality breaks unconscious voting.
I am beaten being treated as a child for saying pain while everyone counts pay to be called adult.
I have plenty of appropriate help, what I do not have here is an account that survives talking about #Traumahack #Painhack #Centhack without losing my accounts because people use votes to sort feeds without sensible granulate logic filters, avoiding letting us manage and spreadsheet our own research and development fully and fairly literate — logging versus flagging and flogging.
Learning and listening is always hit and miss empathic determination.
Losing and paining emotional accounts is severe and inappropriate for power structures and power codes that can easily handle logging our real life data better than calling a memory error.
You understand that not everyone can blur between words the way you do, right? It's not something they teach people; I'm out of practice.
So yes, everyone here is focused on money and not beauty and definitely not poetry. This is a cesspit. It is one of the worst online communities there is, and I wouldn't be here at all if I weren't stuck in the web tech sector for at least a little longer.
But you're going to have to accept that if you want to share output here, you're doing so in a hostile environment, not because people don't care, or aren't interested, or aren't loving, but because what they can't understand they're going to downvote. Even if they strip downvotes from the audit log, other comments that say more mundane things will get upvoted more than yours.
Just like I accept that my downvoted comments were mostly a bland stand for anti-authoritarianism no one really wants to hear.
I say this with empathy. Do you have doctors telling you to take medication? Please take that medication.