Well finding pure MDMA can be problematic but it's certainly not an insurmountable problem if you take your time and research it well. While it's true that there is a fair amount of "cut" product and even fake product on the market the DEA's own statistics do show that a large and growing percentage of seized "ecstasy" is testing pure, so statistically speaking you're more likely to find pure MDMA on the black market today than at any time in the past. With that said you do have to be careful. There are ways to rule out the presence of certain contaminants such as methamphetamine, you might try purchasing a kit which provides certain chemicals that test for the presence of methamphetamine and other contaminants:
(I'm not vouching for the above kit in particular, do your own research in this area)
If you feel like you need a third party to be there with you then maybe you do, each person is different. I will say that MDMA isn't like a psychedelic where you definitely want to have a "trip sitter" present, it's a much more controllable experience.
In my opinion MDMA may feel mystical, magical or sublime; but it doesn't feel weird. MDMA "provides a centering experience, rather than an ego diffusing experience" (Dr. Philip Wolfson).
If you decide to go ahead without one then let me advise you to try it outdoors in private setting, perhaps near a lake, or a mountain top, somewhere with a view where you can roam about enjoy yourself. If you have a significant other then I highly recommend taking it together. This drug is perfect for couples therapy.
Even reading a book for too long can feel "weird." And when you can't stop reading until the 6-8 hours is up, that could be a problem if you're in the woods on your own or something.
If you think you might need someone with you, you should probably have someone with you. These things can become self-fulfilling. Taking powerful drugs when in a state of (acute) apprehension or anxiety is not a good idea.
Obviously it might well be fine, by all accounts the stuff does tend to make you feel good, but doing any unusual activity for the first time on your own is very different to doing it with someone who's done it before.
This is MDMA we're talking about... not psychedelics. I've known people (SWIM and all that) who have taken it purely to abort a bad LSD trip. Pure MDMA is not going to produce anxiety. You can even be fairly functional on it, depending on the dose.
There are plenty of "I really wish this was over" drugs, and MDMA simply isn't one of them.
In sum, it must makes you feel more of what is good and most pronounced from within. For deep psychotherapy you may need a guide, but to simply explore it you don't. That said, you do want some friends (and a record player) around because, well, that's what its for :)
http://www.raveready.com/MDMA-Ecstasy-Testing-Kit-p/dansacc....
(I'm not vouching for the above kit in particular, do your own research in this area)
If you feel like you need a third party to be there with you then maybe you do, each person is different. I will say that MDMA isn't like a psychedelic where you definitely want to have a "trip sitter" present, it's a much more controllable experience.
In my opinion MDMA may feel mystical, magical or sublime; but it doesn't feel weird. MDMA "provides a centering experience, rather than an ego diffusing experience" (Dr. Philip Wolfson).
If you decide to go ahead without one then let me advise you to try it outdoors in private setting, perhaps near a lake, or a mountain top, somewhere with a view where you can roam about enjoy yourself. If you have a significant other then I highly recommend taking it together. This drug is perfect for couples therapy.