Tried that with working hours, with amouny of daily reports sent (I kept forgetting or avoiding them sometimes) and with sleep hours. In all three cases, it only ended up in me getting into unseen levels of anxiety because of failing AND loosing money (which I don't have much), which obviously led to more failure (positive feedback loop of anxiety and/or panic).
Ultimately I semi-solved some of my problems by writing a time for coming into office in my work contract and thus fixing the top (early) part of my schedule.
In a way, this experience taught me that I'm increasingly anxiety-driven and unable to be deterred by potential punishment. I'll ponder something hurtful to me in my conscious mind, stress like hell because of the unconscious, and then go ahead and do it anyway. Anyone knows a cure for that?
Ultimately I semi-solved some of my problems by writing a time for coming into office in my work contract and thus fixing the top (early) part of my schedule.
In a way, this experience taught me that I'm increasingly anxiety-driven and unable to be deterred by potential punishment. I'll ponder something hurtful to me in my conscious mind, stress like hell because of the unconscious, and then go ahead and do it anyway. Anyone knows a cure for that?