> It requires effort to care about stuff even after bad shit has happened to you. It requires effort to look for the best in situations. It requires effort to think that maybe tomorrow could be better. It's easy to just say "fuck it, I don't care".
All of this is 100% true, but it's also incredibly draining after literal decades of being on the wrong end of abuse and hatred purely for daring to care, and hope, and try desperately to make anything even the tiniest bit better. After a point, it eventually becomes just too much effort for zero (or negative) return.
I don’t disagree, as I said I am often a cynical and fatalistic person as I have gotten older.
This is why I respect old people who seem to still manage to be stay optimistic and trusting of people in the world. I don’t think that’s “natural”, I think it’s an effort that these people put into seeing the world as a potentially good place.
> I think it’s an effort that these people put into seeing the world as a potentially good place.
Oh, the world is an absolutely amazing place. It's just a shame that only a handful of humans really seem to notice and / or care. The rest either take it for granted or want to strip-mine it for profit at any cost. :(
All of this is 100% true, but it's also incredibly draining after literal decades of being on the wrong end of abuse and hatred purely for daring to care, and hope, and try desperately to make anything even the tiniest bit better. After a point, it eventually becomes just too much effort for zero (or negative) return.