I sympathise with the author but I fear what he's doing here is adding one more item to that list of thoughts: "I'm in a trap"

There's a lot of stuff I started writing from personal experience but I've just deleted it because I sense what's being talked about in the article is probably classifiable as an eating disorder and I am in no way qualified to say anything about eating disorders. People who identify with the sentiments expressed in the article may want to consult a doctor.