open your mouth, wider, wider, good, now say ahhhhhhgg, good, close you right eye, yes yes, loook to the left, good, now close the left eye, good yes look to the right, fine, well, not so fine but not so bad....,you seem to be suffering from immanence, which as a male you are not imune from, women, born with the phsycological wetware to deal with child birth can handle any amount of immanence, but men must stay busy, and actualy initiate and do stuff, or they will get infected with external soonness, and loose there timing and initiative. It quite litteraly does not matter what you do, anything at all is good, pick lint, build an airplane, get a degree, walk a lot, irritate people on the inter.,er,,er...ok not that, as it's immpossible not to do, but you get the idea? right