I appreciate the sympathies. Everything's okay. I'm relatively comfortable with death. Though it still feels like we're in a local optima faraway removed from true nirvana, there's not much we can do about that currently. I don't know if any "speed run" of life today could solve it for those of us presently alive.
> If death is oblivion, then you won't be able to feel sad that you don't exist since there won't be a consciousness to interpret these feelings.
I've also taken this to mean that any pleasure and pain in this life are meaningless on a geological time span. Apart from what comfort we need to keep our mental health while still alive [1], we don't need to optimize for self-gratification, pleasure, or wealth accumulation. It's my excuse for grinding so hard at the few things that bring me meaning.
We're all traversing these gradients differently. The sum of what we learn and build will feed into the next generations. I hope the future is brighter for them than the wildest of we could dream of today.
[1] Time with friends and family; enough resources to not worry about food, shelter, or bills; a fun distraction here or there
> If death is oblivion, then you won't be able to feel sad that you don't exist since there won't be a consciousness to interpret these feelings.
I've also taken this to mean that any pleasure and pain in this life are meaningless on a geological time span. Apart from what comfort we need to keep our mental health while still alive [1], we don't need to optimize for self-gratification, pleasure, or wealth accumulation. It's my excuse for grinding so hard at the few things that bring me meaning.
We're all traversing these gradients differently. The sum of what we learn and build will feed into the next generations. I hope the future is brighter for them than the wildest of we could dream of today.
[1] Time with friends and family; enough resources to not worry about food, shelter, or bills; a fun distraction here or there