You may be missing the feeling of being a human being with atonomy over the course of your life. Missing in the sence of absence, definately not in a sense of sadness or regret - be happy to not have to worry about the most existential things in life and being dependent on the whims of a boss / company / ecomomy for them. tl;dr I'm happy for you to not be in the rat race, it's completely not glorious (to be in it).