I suggest seeking out therapists who work with veterans and do MDMA Assisted Therapy. Search around and ask for them. The MDMA will shut of your amygdala for 7 hours so you can have long talks with the therapists without your body experiencing fear/anxiety. You'll be able to efficiently get through talking about your traumatic experiences and experience a healthy reconnection with the therapists while in a peaceful state full of endorphins and oxytocin. You'll reconnect with the good inside yourself and humanity. I resolved my PTSD diagnosis this way and it gor me back on track.