There are only two types of advice which I find useful nowadays: "The odds of success are extremely low, you need to keep rolling the dice." or "You need to find people who are willing to help you."
Everything else feels like gaslighting because I already tried so many things and clearly that was enough to sent me on an upward trajectory.
But definitely I do sometimes feel like there is a conspiracy because I know quite a few people who were not competent who succeeded... This seems to rule out the 'low probability' scenario. I feel like, in my case, there is an element of being rejected due to obscure 'human' factors that are beyond my understanding.
There are only two types of advice which I find useful nowadays: "The odds of success are extremely low, you need to keep rolling the dice." or "You need to find people who are willing to help you."
Everything else feels like gaslighting because I already tried so many things and clearly that was enough to sent me on an upward trajectory.
But definitely I do sometimes feel like there is a conspiracy because I know quite a few people who were not competent who succeeded... This seems to rule out the 'low probability' scenario. I feel like, in my case, there is an element of being rejected due to obscure 'human' factors that are beyond my understanding.