Find another profession and make programming a hobby instead.
Some fortunate people can make their professional life also their passion and derive fulfillness from it, but not everyone can be like that. For everyone else, work makes damn near anything miserable even if it's something you otherwise love.
You loved programming before you made money from it, and you hate programming now that you make money from it. The problem is clearly money and you need to decouple it from programming.
Yes, I'm aware changing your line of work is more easier said than done, but that's the only proper way of resolving your conflict in my opinion.
i did this, i get much more enjoyment from computing and tech without all the tedium, and i can dream of projects i want to work on (and sometimes do them :p) - only for my own enjoyment ofc.
Some fortunate people can make their professional life also their passion and derive fulfillness from it, but not everyone can be like that. For everyone else, work makes damn near anything miserable even if it's something you otherwise love.
You loved programming before you made money from it, and you hate programming now that you make money from it. The problem is clearly money and you need to decouple it from programming.
Yes, I'm aware changing your line of work is more easier said than done, but that's the only proper way of resolving your conflict in my opinion.