"When I start working again, it won’t involve picking up where I left off, but something completely different and oriented around these deeper realizations and helping other people find the same insights for themselves."
Such condescending drivel. The first "realisation" is what is commonly taught within the first 5 sessions of cognitive behavioural therapy. The fifth seems like a move in the right direction for a person who considers (2) and (3) to be so enlightening to justify teaching other people about them, but ultimately coming up with purpuses for your life and ranking them sounds like setting yourself up for a lot of disappointment once the inevitable days where such self-proclaimed purposes can't be achieved come.
Envisioning dedicating an entire blog to enlighten others about these "realisations" people generally have before turning 20 just makes you sound like a narcissist.
> The first "realisation" is what is commonly taught within the first 5 sessions of cognitive behavioural therapy
This is something I learned early and explored regularly in my therapy journey of many years, but I never directly experienced it until I had time off to explore it more deeply (mindfulness meditation, time in nature, photography all helped here). It's one thing to understand this conceptually. It's another thing entirely to experience it directly, and it's that delta that seems worth exploring.
My goal in writing all of this out isn't to enlighten people, or to claim I've found the one true path, or to proclaim novel findings about the nature of self. But rather, to re-explore the interesting parts of the break and what worked/didn't work for my own clarity, and in case that information resonates with someone or helps them through their own stuff. In short: "this is what worked for me, might not work for you, do with that what you will". I'm certain it won't resonate with everyone, and I'm ok with that.
To be honest, one of the biggest things that has made me think twice about this project is that I don't want people to think I'm taking myself too seriously.
But your comment helped me realize that I'm not actually concerned about naysayers, so thank you for that!
Such condescending drivel. The first "realisation" is what is commonly taught within the first 5 sessions of cognitive behavioural therapy. The fifth seems like a move in the right direction for a person who considers (2) and (3) to be so enlightening to justify teaching other people about them, but ultimately coming up with purpuses for your life and ranking them sounds like setting yourself up for a lot of disappointment once the inevitable days where such self-proclaimed purposes can't be achieved come.
Envisioning dedicating an entire blog to enlighten others about these "realisations" people generally have before turning 20 just makes you sound like a narcissist.