> That's a sign that your resume looks good, but you interview poorly.
Yeah, exactly. If you're 'leaking' at one point, that's what you should focus on.
I just don't think there is much more I can do without feeling I am being fake. I could _probably_ take ADHD meds and zone out a bit but certainly isn't great.
I don't ever disclose any of this even to current employers. I don't think I come across as "talented jerk", I think I come across as probably more of a pushover than I actually am so that I don't veer into people thinking I am a "stuck up bitch" (to be quite blunt about my concern).
I will consider other factors I can tweak that may give a better impression, but I do think I come across more as "eccentric fast talker who lives tech" than "buttoned up white collar" and that may be part of the problem; that I am trying the wrong kind of 'puzzle' and there is a company out there that does want my type.
> But it might be more likely that if many different groups of people have all been interested in you on paper but then you didn't meet expectations
This is likely what it is to be quite honest. It's that constant issue of "need experience to get experience". No one is willing to take a 'risk' on me being a principal or architect because I don't have on paper experience on that title despite doing that level of work.
I have all the hallmarks: mentorship, well-written documentation, talks, open source work. The only really left to consider is:
1) I come across as insane, people see that, I don't, and they choose not to involve themselves.
2) They have pre-conceived notions of what someone of that 'tier' looks / acts / sounds like.
I do understand that at that tier there is a concrete expectation of external communication but the weird part is I already do that anyway.
Yeah, exactly. If you're 'leaking' at one point, that's what you should focus on.
I just don't think there is much more I can do without feeling I am being fake. I could _probably_ take ADHD meds and zone out a bit but certainly isn't great.
I don't ever disclose any of this even to current employers. I don't think I come across as "talented jerk", I think I come across as probably more of a pushover than I actually am so that I don't veer into people thinking I am a "stuck up bitch" (to be quite blunt about my concern).
I will consider other factors I can tweak that may give a better impression, but I do think I come across more as "eccentric fast talker who lives tech" than "buttoned up white collar" and that may be part of the problem; that I am trying the wrong kind of 'puzzle' and there is a company out there that does want my type.
> But it might be more likely that if many different groups of people have all been interested in you on paper but then you didn't meet expectations
This is likely what it is to be quite honest. It's that constant issue of "need experience to get experience". No one is willing to take a 'risk' on me being a principal or architect because I don't have on paper experience on that title despite doing that level of work.
I have all the hallmarks: mentorship, well-written documentation, talks, open source work. The only really left to consider is:
1) I come across as insane, people see that, I don't, and they choose not to involve themselves.
2) They have pre-conceived notions of what someone of that 'tier' looks / acts / sounds like.
I do understand that at that tier there is a concrete expectation of external communication but the weird part is I already do that anyway.