I honestly feel bad for you. I don't know where you are from or what you are up to, but it sounds like you are really in a bad way.
Which is a shame, as Life is something good, even if there are hard moments.
I strongly suggest looking for some way to improve and enjoy yourself. Breathing techniques help for some, Zen for others. Religion adds tremendously to personal well being, and helps deal with frustrations and pain.
Professional help can get you a long way, as can marriage if you are willing to genuinely care for your partner.
And drop social media, videos, drinks, drugs, porn, or whatever else is burning you out. (I don't have a smartphone and am amazed how much better my life is for it)
Which is a shame, as Life is something good, even if there are hard moments.
I strongly suggest looking for some way to improve and enjoy yourself. Breathing techniques help for some, Zen for others. Religion adds tremendously to personal well being, and helps deal with frustrations and pain.
Professional help can get you a long way, as can marriage if you are willing to genuinely care for your partner.
And drop social media, videos, drinks, drugs, porn, or whatever else is burning you out. (I don't have a smartphone and am amazed how much better my life is for it)
Enjoy life, as you only get it once.