I experienced this first hand on our high school reunion party. Zero people remembered my most awkward or embarrassing moments - only I did. The only thing they cared about was themselves. I was totally stunned. They had a completely different picture of me.
Then it damned on me: I couldn't really remember any other awkward nor embarrassing moments by others. All I cared about was I.
It doesn't matter whether they remember you decades later. What matters is whether they shun you or include you in the moment. Perhaps they don't really even notice you enough to care if you're awkward or they just know you're so awkward and "other" that there's no point in keeping track of yet another awkward moment of yours. It doesn't mean their perceptions don't influence your life.
Then it damned on me: I couldn't really remember any other awkward nor embarrassing moments by others. All I cared about was I.
Relief. :D