Hang in there, bud. It will get better, or the world will change enough to make our lives more tolerable somehow.
I joke that I barely noticed covid19: I was already socially-isolated enough (have been working from home for almost a decade, and in many ways I was/am already depressed for my own reasons) that the only change was my hair getting pretty long and my kids getting bored at home. I know I cannot complain - got a steady job just before the lockdown, my financial situation is not terrible, I have a garden to milk any ray of sunshine that Northern England might grant us...
BUT
I've given up on therapy, as there is no way for me to make any progress on my personal problems in these circumstances. I was supposed to spend a couple of weeks on a beach for the first time in years - it didn't happen and it might not happen for many more months. My parents can only see their grandkids every few months and now we're well overdue. I live in fear that my new employer will eventually feel the hurt and they'll have to cut, with LIFO putting a big target on my back. Even if I keep this job, my dreams of independence were shattered last year and there is no way to try again in these circumstances.
So it's shit really, but what can we do? Sometimes the planet just tries to kills us and all we can do is endure.
I joke that I barely noticed covid19: I was already socially-isolated enough (have been working from home for almost a decade, and in many ways I was/am already depressed for my own reasons) that the only change was my hair getting pretty long and my kids getting bored at home. I know I cannot complain - got a steady job just before the lockdown, my financial situation is not terrible, I have a garden to milk any ray of sunshine that Northern England might grant us...
BUT
I've given up on therapy, as there is no way for me to make any progress on my personal problems in these circumstances. I was supposed to spend a couple of weeks on a beach for the first time in years - it didn't happen and it might not happen for many more months. My parents can only see their grandkids every few months and now we're well overdue. I live in fear that my new employer will eventually feel the hurt and they'll have to cut, with LIFO putting a big target on my back. Even if I keep this job, my dreams of independence were shattered last year and there is no way to try again in these circumstances.
So it's shit really, but what can we do? Sometimes the planet just tries to kills us and all we can do is endure.