I'm currently on wife #2 and unsure if I am going to continue it.
I'm unhappy alone, I'm unhappy married.
Do the benefits of being married (real food) outweigh the down-side?
I don't know.
I don't know if this was the right choice, I don't know if I'm destined to be miserable forever. This really sucks.
The fact that the only mentioned benefit of being married that you decided to name was "real food" is a giant red flag to me, lol. Sounds like you're not interested in your second wife just a vessel who can provide you things you want.
the observation
I only mean to point out that, under some circumstances that comment probably is only a result of current sentiment... which is far kinder than what i've heard from other 'happily married' folks from time to time...
I'm not the same person I was 10 years ago, so why would I expect her to be the same women I fell in love with 10 years ago?
It's not a crime to change, grow, evolve; so why punish the person you are with?